It is very upsetting to be a young adult trying to save money and make your way in the world. When I find a penny, I really do pick it up. I save everything to buy the things I want, to make rent, or a car note. I don't like to be frivolous with my money. I work hard for it, and spending money on things I can live without is hard for me. I had been wanting a new digital camera for over a year, so when I graduated in December from college my dad asked me what I wanted. I was so excited, I told him I wanted exactly what he bought me for my high school graduation. He had bought me a digital camera when I graduated high school, and I was extremely excited. That camera had gone about kaput by now, so I took the money my dad gave me along with tips I had been saving up for WEEKS and bought a new, shiny, over 10 megapixel digital camera. It cost me over $400 which I went back and forth on for a while, but if I'm going to save for it, it is going to be the best.
I am really careful with my new camera. I don't leave it in my purse if I'm not planning on using it, and it is always in it's case! Well, I brought my camera back home when I went visit to take pictures and record my little brothers because I'm planning on moving to California in June, and I want to be able to watch the videos when I'm lonely.
I went to work tonight with my camera in my purse. I put my purse in my backseat on the floor. I usually NEVER leave my purse in my car, but I thought it would be ok if my car is parked in the light right by the door/window of the restaurant I work at. I should have never done that! My car's back passenger glass was shattered and my purse stolen.
I am really upset about this! I just bought my purse less than a month ago, and I fussed at myself for buying it because is was a little over $80, I told myself that was too much to spend when you are struggling. I did it anyway. I also had a designer wallet I had begged my mom for with pictures you can't replace in it. I had casino chips also in my purse totaling just under $200, my new shiny camera :( and my LSU checkbook.
I keep telling myself these are material thing that can be replaced, and I'm fortunate I wasn't robbed in another manner. But, the truth is, these aren't just material things. These are my things, that I worked very hard to earn. I feel violated. I know there are worse things that could have happen to me, but I just feel like I'm not catching up financially. I used to take money for granted, no worries in the world. Now that I'm struggling, it seems to never stop. I was just about to put my car in the shop to finally have it repaired after I had wrecked it in August of 2008. Now, I'm worrying about replacing a window, purse, wallet, checkbook, license, and camera.
How am I supposed to move back to California? Are these signs God is sending me to stay? The economy, realizing how much I am going to miss my family and friends, not making as much money as I used to, jobs I wanted being offered to me in Louisiana. What if I take up one of these job opportunities in Louisiana, near home? Am I going to regret not trying to pursue my dream?
